A New Start

Writing on my blog is different for me than writing in my journal........Why?  Well one thing, there is this feeling that what I write here isn't in my private space just for me.  There is this feeling that no one really reads this blog anyway so why would it matter.  Yet people do read this blog.  So where am I going with this.........to the fact that it is a new year and I want to do more with this space I have taken up residence in blogosphere.  But the question is for me is that it means more commitment on my part.  I struggle with that C word, maybe because I never had follow through as a child, another thing maybe which I have learned recently is our type of personality.....carol tuttle describes 4 types of people.......I believe I am more a type 1, just because I like to have fun, am not detailed oriented at all and my biggest thing is I am an idea factory.  I can come up with the most amazing ideas, but a lot of them stay just that ideas.  I struggle with that C word and also with follow through to finish.  Yet I am working more on those two things.  I love coming up with fabulous ideas and then to see them into action is even a better excitement for me.

One of my failings or lack of follow through was my daily drawing.  I have more that haven't been posted, but just to add here that drawing was hard for me to fit into my day.  I don't sit for very long and to sit and draw required more time than I wanted to invest at this point.  I loved where the drawings were headed and hope to continue on that journey.  Still there.

One thing that I notice with my life is that I don't get a lot of creative feedback from those I am around.  I thrive on creativity of any kind.  I have turned into Bob the Builder the last few weeks.  I think of something and it just comes and happens.  So we live with my parents to help with my Alzheimer dad (I don't like that reference but it is what it is)  I love my dad and mom and it is sad to see them get old.  So we live here and they don't have a huge home so we have remodeled the garage which is actually a stand alone garage.  Well anyway its not the home I desire, but it is a place as we are in this chapter of our lives to help and in doing that we end up sacrificing some of the nicety's of life.  But the neet thing has been is that my boys and I are closer and they are blooming into great young men.  (blooming really isn't a great descriptor word for young men,.....;]  So anyway we are transforming our tiny space into more useable space that the boys have individual space and can then make it there own.  I have found that I love power tools and I love building my ideas into realities.  Started with a desire, received revelation of what to do, came up with a plan, acted on that plan, got stumped for a bit and then another idea came, acted and now it is a reality blessing our lives.

Do you believe in revelation and inspiration?  I do!  I know that we have a Heavenly Father that loves us and is very concerned about what we do here on this earth.  I know that we are agents who have the ability to make choices.  God gives us the ability to make choices whether they are good or bad.  He doesn't control us, we control us by our thoughts and our desires.  So what does this have to do with creativity?  Tons and tons!  Heavenly Father wants us to be happy individuals and to find joy here, now!  It is our divine nature to have joy and happiness.